Today I realized that one of the anonymous blogs out there that I read sometimes when nobody on my blogroll is updating is actually written by someone I know. And the hontesy and self-truth that this person is courageous enough to write with really amazes me.
I like to think of myself as being one of the most well-adjusted people I know. But am I? I spend time congratulating myself on making it through my personal strife and struggles, and coming out “on top” at the end of things.
Then I read other people’s web journals, and see what they’re able to write about, and how they are so confidant in their own lives. And what do I write about? My fridge contains liverwurst. I am Licorice Tea. I am a temporary cat lady.
What am I really?
I am dissatisfied with my relationship.
I am curious about things I’m not comfortable speaking about.
I am concerned about aspects of my job.
I am lonely.
I am scared.
I hear you Jen. I remember the first ‘real blog’ that I ever saw was written by a fellow IRCer that I didn’t really know. This was probably back in 99 or so.
They were SO open about everything that was going on in their life that I was shocked. At the time I told them that I wish I had the curage to post that kind of information for the public to know.
But, now it’s many years later and I often don’t scratch the surface of what’s going on in my life. But then again, people tell me that I am like that in real life to. I have been known to give information, to friends, about myself on a need-to-know basis (and not many people need to know). It’s hard being open with friends, let alone the whole internet. But I was thought that information = power.
As for your post: Sounds to me like your going through a period of self-questioning. This is a good thing and I know too many people who never question their life at all. If you never question what you have, what’s going on, what your happy (or not happy) with, you would never know if your happy or not. Not know what you want to change, what you want to fix and what you want to keep the same.
Altho, it’s been a few days since your last post… Good luck and I hope your doing better now. =)
Hmmmm….. I sometimes wonder about the stuff I type out. I go wandering around Live Journal, and I read what some are typing. Sometimes it makes me wonder if I’m not waisting my time there.
When that happins I call it ‘Journal Envy’…..
After making an entry or two, it goes away, and all is back to normal………….
I think…..yea, it is…..lol. Chin up.
N
It’s all right to be scared; I think most of us, on some level, are scared too.
But you don’t need to share this with your blog readers if you don’t want to. There’s no contest to see who can reveal the most of themselves on their blogs. You write with such a distinctive voice that it’s a pleasure to read you whether it’s about the trivial, the non-trivial, or the intensely personal. What’s important here is that you write what comes naturally — what you want to share. Keep up the good work, keeping being yourself…that’s what gives movable peechie it’s appeal.
It’s okay to be scared and to feel unsure about things you are not comfortable speaking about. I believe that everyone has insecurities and fears, however it takes courage to express them and share them with others. I see confidence in you for sharing your fears in this blog. I enjoyed knowing what tea your were- I have the tea quiz in my blog too! *smile* I even have a quiz about what kind of zoombie are you….hehe….go figure.
Your blog is your blog. It’s uniquely you. It’s “your world” per say and speaks only your thoughts and only your feelings. For that, I think it’s beautiful and I enjoy reading it.
If ever you need to vent, please feel free.
could it be that you’re doing alright and that everything is fine..? this may sound trite but I think you’re AOK.. but everyonce in a while you get lost in the topics of what to write.. in person I feel it’s easier to talk about ‘anything’ where as here I tend to mind my p’s and q’s.. cause I know its written in stone er.. ethereal stone
it’s ok to be middle ground.. its ok to be boring/cute one day and deep/foreboding the next.. it’s the humanity in us all 🙂
the key to all is taking life one day at a time while staying buzy/happy.. do that as you will blog/work/play feel free to add to this list.. soon you will be a bubble head like me 😉 who doesn’t know where she put her morning tea
this is such a huge issue for me, too. do i stick to posting boring stuff about my day, or do i post the deep issues? and WHY would i post those issues?
when i post the everyday stuff.. i am boring.
when i post the deep issues.. i am considered an emotional basketcase who has serious issues.
i am NEITHER of those things.
don’t beat yourself up for not writing about the hard stuff. everyone has different comfort levels, and as long as you’re dealing with your problems *somehow*, your blog doesn’t have to be a part of it. you know? talking to friends is way more effective than blogging, imho.. and i find that if i blog too much about the important stuff, i don’t talk to people about it.. blogging makes me feel as if i’ve actually made progress, but really, all it does is open me to attack from strangers and it gives me a false sense of comfort.
phew, could that have made LESS sense? i don’t think so! but i think you get my point.
ps: if you need to talk to someone, i’m here. most of the time, anyhow. 🙂
different bloggers have different thresholds for sharing. I’ll tell you a lot more about myself in person than I’d ever, EVER post on my blog, because you never know who can use your blog for evil, nefarious purposes in the future.
What? Ah, I thought that this was just an interweb stop-off for soft-core over the hill vegas stripper porn! Methylated goodness, etc.
Get comfortable—fast! There’s not enough time to waste being uncomfortable. It’s a terrible problem, and maybe the solution is Poop(tm)
for the most part, it might be that the blogger that you’re reading may be confident in that aspect of their lives. i know i only share certain aspects of my life in my blog, things that wouldn’t make me look like a complete loser. but trust me, thats only ONE aspect of my personality. i’m sure it goes the same for you. 🙂
i like stopping by and reading what you have to say. anything you have to say. so whatever you feel comfortable with sharing, that’s great, no pressure 🙂
but i do know what you mean about the whole confidence thing.
I’ll chime in here and agree with Donna. I, personally, read your journal because I like you. You share the thoughts that you want to, and I’m honoured that you’re brave enough to do so. Many people aren’t. Hell, dear, you post more worthwhile reading than I do. 🙂
:/
I think everybody has issues like that, well adjusted or not. Of course, definitions of “well adjusted” vary as well.
and we like reading your website because we like you, regardless of what you can share. not everybody is comfortable revealing deep down inner thoughts, even though we all have them. some of us need to be anonymous to do so. some of us are just mildly exhibitionistic. (er, cough, that wouldn’t be me…) 🙂
*hug*