Whirlwind of Randomness

My life has been a whirlwind of randomness lately.

Between circles of friends, family, work & personal stuff, not to mention the holidays, I feel I’ve hardly had time to breathe. So here’s what’s been going on with me for the past little while:

A friend of mine, and perhaps one of the nicest guys on the planet (even if he is a little clueless when it comes to the opposite sex) is making what I think is an incredibly stupid decision. He’s starting a relationship with a woman who’s much older (7 years) and has an 8 year-old child. It’s all very Jerry Macguire, and I doubt it will work out very well – which is unfortunate for all parties involved.

I think I’ve finally got the family visiting thing co-ordinated for Christmas. It’ll be nice to have 4 days in a row to get away from responsibilities and the mundane day to day stuff. Four full days to hang out with my family and my dog and forget that I’m a grownup and that there’s a real-world out there waiting for me.

Work has been hectic to say the least. Not only have we been ramping up for a major software switchover (which is all sorts of trouble in and of itselt) but I’m also getting a taste of the difficulties of management. Not that I’m the epitome of maturity or always the most rational person in the room, but I really wish that a lot of other people were more mature and rational in their attitudes towards work. I’d like to go into this more – a lot more – but people from work read this, and I’d also like to keep my job.

The whole Body-for-LIFE thing is falling off a bit. I guess the true test of a good plan is if it can be maintained even during times of stress. Apparently this one can’t. Not that it’s not a good plan – it’s just something else on my plate that I don’t feel I can deal with entirely right this second. It takes a lot of effort to plan it out and execute the meals and exercise. Not to mention that when I’m stressed, I just don’t want to eat properly (although exercise is definitely helping to control the stress a bit – which is nice). Thankfully I’m being a bit more forgiving of myself than I would’ve in the past – and I’m just doing what I can, when I can, that falls into my plan, and if I fall a few times along the way, so be it.

And speaking of stress, last night I had my first anxiety attack in a long time. Almost 8 months in fact (which is the last time I was really stressed). It was by far the most extreme one I’ve had in quite a while, and also strange, and different this time. I knew in my rational mind exactly what was happening, but felt the urge so strongly to go deal with what was making me anxious, that I actually got up at 3:00AM and drove home from Brian’s to check on things. Then drove around a bit more to calm myself down, then went back to his place and eventually fell alseep. Hopefully it’s a one-time occurrance.

My holiday preparations are pretty much complete. Shopping and wrapping are all done. All I have left to do is clean and pack for my few days away from home. Thankfully, my neurotic roommate leaves tomorrow to Ontario until after New Year’s. At least I won’t have to come home after Christmas to a messy house while she waits for her life to be perfect so she can finally get her shit together.

And despite the fact that this entire entry sounds really bitter, I’m actually in a pretty cheery, festive, holiday mood. Go figure.

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